I should have asked... if anyone was willing to talk about their situation, but if not I fully understand, especially those who are not with the person they should have ended up with. That's tough, I understand that.
uhm, to whoever put "The only person we need is God", that certainly is admirable, that one could survive as a deitysexual, but even in the Bible and other religious books, it states that man needs human interaction, and also should seek out a mate. Just so you know that. Makes you wonder how Catholics can justify their priests, oh wait, they have alter boys.
WTF? This ballot was made in Relationship, not Religion... dammit all.... how the hell did this happen
in 1994, I had chosen to love this person who loved me also as well, and we shared incredible passion together for a few months. she was breath taking. however, she abruptly ended the relationship, and at the time it was the most shattering experience of my life. after that i started dating any girl that came my way. i became a real man-slut. i was determined to end the pain of the rejection from the one girl.
after about two years, i met an even more wonderful girl, and she eventually became my wife... but maybe sometimes you never forhet your first love.
the way i met my boyfriend reinforces the feeling that we are truly meant to be. he is the one for me, always.
OK jappy, if you want truthfullness from me, here goes!
I have had a lot of failed love affairs and two failed marriages. I presently live with my second wife solely in a union of mutual financial necessity --- we can't see each other for all the sour apples on this earth, present and future alike and I don't believe she is capable of loving anyone ---just money and power. Never in all the 62 years of my life have I ever had any kind of a relationship including a marriage in which the love was even remotely mutual. I truly believe that it is God's Way of punishing me for all of my sins! When I first started noticing girls 51 years ago, I have always found myself fixated on a perpetual fantasy of my own creation to which I have mentally connected the faces and bodies of the women to whom I have been physically attracted. None of them that I actually met could ever see me for all of the sour apples on this earth, present and future alike; there was just no compatibility at all. All of the women to whom I have been physically attracted have absolutely been the wrong ones which include both my first and second wives. Now get this: for the last seven years, I have been physically attracted to a lady I have never met in any way, shape or form whatsoever nor have I ever seen her in person nor have we ever communicated in any way. That lady is Maria Genero who was once a TV news anchorwoman for WKBW-TV in Buffalo, NY. She also starred in two movies, the first one being "Striptease" where she plays the TV reporter who exclaims, "Holy shit!" when she catches Burt Reynolds with his trousers off and the second one being "Wishmaster 2: The Evil Never Dies" where she also plays a TV Reporter. She is listed in both film credits as "Maria Gennaro." See what a fuckin' fool and idiot I have been all this time? Let's just say that my life has mostly been a life of loneliness. Oh yeah, I am still considered to be handsome but I am now obese at 310 pounds and I'm missing many of my teeth including the front ones --- I don't think that any lady including Ms. Genero could ever be attracted to me in my present state AND age! I have no real soulmate at this time and I probably never will. I really have nothing to lose when it comes to love. I can clearly recall the time in my workplace when one woman to whom I was intensely attracted rejected me outright claiming that she "didn't want to hurt my feelings." Upon my immediate realization that I had nothing to lose, my loud and hostile answer was, "Well, at least I HAVE human feelings, period!" There were several people nearby who didn't like that woman and they first laughed at her and then cheered for me....it was then that my rejection was transformed into a real victory which really felt good! I am absolutely straight and I neither smoke nor drink alcololic beverages including beer and wine nor have I ever used any kind of street drugs in my life but I have physical maladies which I don't want to discuss here. I have been both hurt and ripped off but everybody who has ever unjustly screwed me has paid a very high price without any involvement on my part.....I refer to Galatians 6, verse 7 which reads,"Be not deceived for God is not mocked for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap." What goes around comes around!